“Why should I go and fall apart for
you?”
Every breath I take goes to you…
Every heartbeat belongs to you.
In your head you are my world…
“Why should I have a heavy heart?”
You were supposed to always be
there for me.
You were supposed to catch me when
I fall…
But you never did.
Don’t you dare tell me we are black
and white,
Don’t you dare tell me how I should
feel.
Don’t question me for my lack of
tears…
I’ve sung too many requiems for
you…
I’ve given you too many breaths…
Too many heartbeats have been
thrown away by you.
I tried…
to let you be everything for me.
I tried…
to be the goddess you wanted.
I tried…
to be the angel you needed.
I tried…
I cried once for you.
Seeing into your eyes,
watching the memories disintegrate
into wisps of smoke.
That was the one time I cried,
The moment I felt my heart truly
beat for you.
Since then I never felt the same heartbeat…
Even when we were one I was two.
You struggled to accept my duality
But begged that I accept yours.
“Why should I go and fall apart for
you…
“Why should I say I’ll keep you
with me?”
I will sing no more requiems…
You’ve died too many times for me
to give you my tears.
If I cried it wouldn’t be genuine
anymore…
It’ll be as fake as your “I Love
You”
It will be as tainted as your
reality…
It will be as fake…
“Why should I have a heavy heart?
“Why should I go and fall apart for
you?”
I have given you too much.
I have given you…
I tried to be human for you.
Don’t you dare tell me that it was
real.
Don’t you dare question my lack of
tears,
If I broke down and cried right now
It’ll be as fake as you.
You were supposed to stay.
You were supposed to be my pillar.
Why did I end up being only yours?
Why did our love become a contest
of pretending?
Was there even enough love to start
the game?
I will sing no more requiems…
tonight.
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