How much?

How loudly do I have to scream?
How hard do I have to push?
How much do I have to do?

How much will it take for me to matter
to you?

I'm not talking about a certain you, 
I'm asking the world?
I'm asking my reality.

What does it take for me to matter?
What does it take for my work to mean something?

How long do I have to fight to get a moments peace?

How much will it take for me to matter to you?

My existence has been devalued at every turn.
From a parent, from a friend, from a lover.

I'm not worth the truth,
I'm not worth common decency,
I'm not worth the air,
I'm not worth the money or the space.

When will my existence reach its worth?
On what scale do I have to be measured?

What are the standards and why can't I meet it?